Monday, August 13, 2007
Today is the worse day of my life. The most
SHITTIFYING.
BAAAADDDDD.Let me compile a list.
1) I woke up late. 6.57am. wtf. (I couldn't fall asleep last night although bed time was 11pm.)2) I slipped and fell the minute I stepped out of the lift. Sprained my left hip bone a little. I think I also said the F word and my dad was there.
I can't believe I swore in front of my dad. Or at least I think I swore. Everything happened really quick and I was pissed. Pretty easy to get the F word out of me.
3) Arrived to school at 7.30am. They counted me as late. Detention.BAAAAAAAAAAAASKETTT.
4) Over lunch, we found out that Fedora has left SA to go to Laselle to take up Visual Arts
The fifth person I know who has left SA to pursue their calling (4 to Laselle and 1 to poly). It's very upsetting to see people leaving. It's not that I want to go too but I just don't want to see so many people leave. But I still feel happy for them that they can pursue what they really want.
I just feel upset that many people are just quitting JC because they hate the curriculum not because they really feel that the other courses are truly what they want. It just seems a really escapist way of thinking. If you can't even pull through JC, how do you pull through the other obstacles in life? I think everyone needs to buck up (myself included) and just push ourselves. I think we can all do better if we just put in more effort!!!!!
JIA YOU A06!!!!!!5) Econs essay test. 'Nuff said.
Other than all the shit today, I spent lots of time talking rubbish and reciting cheers from Bring It On. I think I'm bipolar or something. One moment I'm all emo and sad. The next moment I'm going "hate us coz we're beautiful but we don't like you either....". I think I'm just trying to make myself feel better. To just forget about why the hell I felt sad in the first place and focus on something else.
On the brighter side of things:
I just had a heart to heart talk with my mum. I don't really get it too often. She massaged the area where I sprained and I just spilled my woes and insecurities.
Told her JC curriculum sucks. A06 rocks and everything but what we learn is just the shit.
Told her about what I learned about the other side of Singapore. The darker side. The stuff I learnt from Sofia after talking to her today.
She tried to cheer me up. Told me not to worry. She knows that I know where I want to go after this (UNI. DUH) and told me to just work towards that. A degree is all that matters now.
Anyway, I think I feel better now.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter day.
5 WEEKS TO PROMOS. SHIT.
Rachel typed at 9:48 pm
