Friday, March 07, 2008
Block test 1 has started!
Oh the horror.
Had my GP paper today. I thought it was not too bad although I think that my essay didn't start very smoothly. Oh wells.
The question I attempted was: "How far does the arts help us to lead better lives?"
I
obviously agreed to a large extent, being a biased member of the arts faculty.
BT is taking a one week
hiatus! MUCH NEEDED STUDY BREAK!!!I also collected my Chinese A Level results..
....and I got a
D! + a merit for oral.
I'm really relieved. For one, I didn't do too badly (in my terms) and for another, I don't have to retake! And I got a pleasant surprise about my oral results. I thought I screwed it big time because I almost burst out laughing when I was reading the passage (I skipped many words and mispronounced even more).
My classmates and I also went to observe the release of the A levels results to the seniors. Apparently, the Arts subjects did well (better than the sciences, or so I heard). Literature had a 57% distinction and I think History had over 60% distinction.
I was quite happy about the Literature results. I felt quite motivated. But my classmates didn't. They just looked at me with the "umm...are you sure? or are you just mad?" expression when I said that we could do better and top the 57%.
Honestly, I think that it is possible even though we are not doing well now. But what struck me more was the fact that my classmates seemed so dejected. They described their feelings to be one of "fear" and not any motivation whatsoever. It saddened me. It seems like they are giving up. But I don't want to think that way either. Fear may work well on people. And I think that in this case, it will help us.
Although some of my classmates were still sceptical, I'm glad that I found someone with the same view as me. I was talking to Matheus and I was glad that he is also aiming for an A in Literature.
I wasn't spared from fear either.
As I took a walk around the hall, I saw some happy people and I saw some sad people. People who were crying, borrowing the shoulders of their friends and even their teachers; people sitting down without a word to say, letting their tears do the talking. That sight struck fear in me. I don't want to be in that state. It's scary to think that it is a possible situation (simply because you'll never know what will happen). It's like the O' Levels all over, except this is on a much much larger scale.
Unprecedented magnitude.
PSLE is bullshit and getting a couple of B3s for the Os wouldn't harm you much (it'll just look really ugly). But now, getting at least 2 As is the ideal. It's the grade that the administration of the universities look for. Go any lower, no scholarship will take you. Go way lower, universities may just reject you. It's the harsh truth. It's a fearful truth.
I may be wrong about the situation but whatever the case is, I really want to do well for the As.
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In the meantime, I should just try to cope with what I've got so far.
This is a really trying period. Both for me and my family..
Rachel typed at 7:22 pm
