Monday, July 28, 2008
Today started out great.
I received news from my sis that her company is interested in having me work for them after the A Levels. In the marketing department no less! I'm pretty interested in marketing so it's cool that my sis asked them about the spot. Actually, I asked my sis to check for me and she did. Apparently, after August, the NUS and SMU interns will leave so there will be free space. I didn't think that I'd be able to get a job there (albeit a job that includes the usual photocopying, coffee-pouring, paper-shredding, etc) because my sister works for a pretty huge firm. It's some headhunting firm based in London and it has many many offices all over the world. I thought that they wouldn't be interested in a small fry like me and since their interns are all undergrads, I thought I wouldn't be given a second thought. Anyway, no harm asking so yeah!
The only thing I can pray for now is that the spot will still be free at around January 2009. Lots of stuff can happen between now till then so I hope that I'll still be able to join then. 'Cos I wouldn't be surprised if they get someone better than me.
So the news brightened up my early morning. But the rest of the day sucked. It was really bad. I really felt like punching a hole in a wall. Not going to narrate about it..
The good part about today was the talk I had with my mum. Yesterday, I felt quite stressed by the thought of the Prelims and I let it show by telling my mum that I'd fail. So obviously, she worried the hell out for me. Being a little calmer today, I told her that I didn't mean what I said. Honestly, I don't think I'd fail Prelims... or at least I can't afford to fail prelims because.... IT IS THE PRELIMS.
I think my mum really needs me to do well for my prelims as an encouragement. My dad as well. After my talk with my mum, I realised that I'm stupid for stressing out. Things just seemed clearer after I talked to her. Well, the huge mountain before me is still there. It just seems more accessible than before. Things were really put into perspective.
Beyond studies, my mum also told me about my family's financial situation. Medicine for my dad is costing thousands and my tuition fees are high too. So now money saving is going to be one of my priorities as well. I need money for all the plans after the As. I'll need to save up for it now. I don't think I'd feel comfortable asking my mum for too much money. Maybe I'll not go for some of my class outings to cut costs (I'll go for the cheaper and more important ones).
"The journey is more important than the end or the start
And what it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard"
- Enth E Nd, Linkin Park Reanimation-
Rachel typed at 11:06 pm
